I will never be enough to please myself. I looked at my reflection in the mirror several times, I realized that I was never that person I once thought I was. There were many times when I thought about doing well and achieving great things, but I could never get out of my world, my dark and twisted world. My mother always loved going to the lake, she said that in that place she felt so free and full of peace. I think it was true, because after my death, I could finally feel that sense of freedom and peace with myself.