I think I had a crush on a guy from Taiwan, but now that it's like 20 years later, I can't remember what the fuck this was all about. Up until a few years ago, I was diagnosed as a fantasy addict, which just is a fancy way of saying that I have trouble with relationships and I never matured as far as having normal adult relationships.........LOL. It's really true, but for some reason, it doesn't bother me too much as I was always a loner even in my younger days, so it's no surprise at all that I am a loner now. It just "feels right". I had a ton of ridiculous crushes on people who didn't like me........that was something that caused me a lot of confusion, until I "figured myself out"........it took too fucking long though. I wish I had known what I know now. I wasted a lot of energy on chasing guys.